Sad

It has been a tough month, but also a month that has convinced me that I have beaten emotional eating for good. Shortly after my last post I learned that my Dad was dying and I needed to get to New York on the next available flight. I already had a flight scheduled for February 19th and I was able to change it for a flight out on February 9th. Words can not describe the feelings during that flight. The next 10 days are a blur of a blizzard, hospitals, hospice, a birthday party, no sleep, and ultimately a funeral. Dad died on February 19th. I was holding his had while he took his last breath with my sisters and closest cousins also at his side. It was a long 10 days, but 10 days that I would not have given up for anything. Dad's funeral was on the 23rd and I flew back to Oklahoma on the 24th. In total 15 days that I did not have time to think about what I could or could not eat. I ate what was available, which most times included carbs. I was afraid to step back on the scale when I got home, but was pleasantly surprised by no weight gain!
I am sad, but also at peace with Dad's passing. He was ready and I know that he and Mom are happy to be together again. I know that he (they) will always be with me.
I also realized that while in the past these events would have sent me into an emotional eating binge, there has been none of those feelings or desire right now. I have settled into this new lifestyle nicely!